A Last Day of Sorts...
Today is my last day of working at the Zorinsky Federal Building Renovation in Omaha, Nebraska. I've been working here for the past 19 months, first as a project engineer/supervisor for a structural concrete subcontractor, and then as an office engineer for the general contractor. For the first 10 months, I lived in Lincoln and commuted every day to Omaha. I quickly learned the value of living close to work. I spent SO much gas money and put SO many miles on my car. That was a good lesson to learn. In the beginning of December 2005, I moved to Omaha. Again, another lesson to learn. When you're young... LIVE CHEAP!!! Get your frickin debts paid off, set aside some for fun, but don't waste it all on stuff that won't last. I ended up living in a studio apartment for the past 9 months that cost me $540.00 per month plus utilities. It's been a really nice place to live, but it's a distance from work and fairly expensive.
On Tuesday, I'm leaving for Louisville, Kentucky, where I will take the position of Architectural Quality Control at a housing renovation at Fort Knox. Unfortunately, we don't get any bonuses of gold bars since they relocated those several years back. However, this is a tough project that I'm going to and I hope to make a difference in the attitude of the subcontractors towards the contractor. It's going to take some work, but my best skills are people skills and that's also what I enjoy doing most; working with people.
These past few months have been hard months for me emotionally and relationally, but I've learned a LOT, have opened up a lot more, have gained confidence, and have become more uniquely myself. These months have been pretty special to me, as well. Probably the most important relationship that I gained over the past few months has been one with a fairly 'wild' friend of mine. It's been a 'rush' of excitement, confusion, definite good times, fairly long talks, and a very good experience for me to go through. I wouldn't say that this friend is any more important than my other good friends but a lot of the things that we've gone through are unique, and cause this friendship to have a more intimate level to it. The best part is, is that we continue to be good friends, and I still care about him a lot. Over the past couple weeks, we've hung out a couple times, and honestly, these have been probably the most enjoyable times that I've spent with him. We can talk on the same level and really not worry about stuff. I don't have to hide anything. If there ever was a person that I could develop a relationship with and be around for a long time, I would want them to have a lot of the same qualities that he does. Sensitive and caring, very thoughtful, fairly crazy, a warm and kind masculine heart. Yea, I do care about him a lot, but I understand that our relationship is not going to develop past that of a good friendship. I'm open to whatever in the future, but it would have to happen on its own, and not be pursued (that's something else I learned over the past few months).
I've also gained several other good friendships, too. It's interesting that you really don't realize how much people really do care about you until it comes time to leave. Then you really start seeing the impact you have upon people and who your real friends are.
Peace and love always,
CJ
On Tuesday, I'm leaving for Louisville, Kentucky, where I will take the position of Architectural Quality Control at a housing renovation at Fort Knox. Unfortunately, we don't get any bonuses of gold bars since they relocated those several years back. However, this is a tough project that I'm going to and I hope to make a difference in the attitude of the subcontractors towards the contractor. It's going to take some work, but my best skills are people skills and that's also what I enjoy doing most; working with people.
These past few months have been hard months for me emotionally and relationally, but I've learned a LOT, have opened up a lot more, have gained confidence, and have become more uniquely myself. These months have been pretty special to me, as well. Probably the most important relationship that I gained over the past few months has been one with a fairly 'wild' friend of mine. It's been a 'rush' of excitement, confusion, definite good times, fairly long talks, and a very good experience for me to go through. I wouldn't say that this friend is any more important than my other good friends but a lot of the things that we've gone through are unique, and cause this friendship to have a more intimate level to it. The best part is, is that we continue to be good friends, and I still care about him a lot. Over the past couple weeks, we've hung out a couple times, and honestly, these have been probably the most enjoyable times that I've spent with him. We can talk on the same level and really not worry about stuff. I don't have to hide anything. If there ever was a person that I could develop a relationship with and be around for a long time, I would want them to have a lot of the same qualities that he does. Sensitive and caring, very thoughtful, fairly crazy, a warm and kind masculine heart. Yea, I do care about him a lot, but I understand that our relationship is not going to develop past that of a good friendship. I'm open to whatever in the future, but it would have to happen on its own, and not be pursued (that's something else I learned over the past few months).
I've also gained several other good friendships, too. It's interesting that you really don't realize how much people really do care about you until it comes time to leave. Then you really start seeing the impact you have upon people and who your real friends are.
Peace and love always,
CJ
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